Posts Tagged stress

the breaking point

Most people that know me don’t know the side of me that absolutely breaks down in a stressful situation. That’s because it doesn’t happen in every stressful situation. In fact, I’m really good under pressure. But in certain cases, on certain days, in certain situations, I lose it. I become a bad friend, a bad father, and a terrible person. I remain on the edge of frustration long after it happens.

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Resolutions

I don’t usually bother to make New Year resolutions. As best as I can tell, I haven’t done so for at least the last three years. It has always just seemed so arbitrary to make large changes and big promises on a day that, in reality, isn’t any more important than any other. I just felt that we as a society should be able to make changes whenever we need them and that waiting for some special day to do so was just a crutch. I still think this is true, to some effect. But I’m also beginning to understand the true importance of ritual, celebration, and social unity. I am starting to realize the necessity of patterns and the importance of outward representation of inner change.

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postponing overwhelm

another tunnel

another tunnel

I’ve been tricking myself lately. Surprisingly, it’s been working, but I’m not sure for how much longer.

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a waste

the longest field

the longest field

It’s 4:00am and my alarm is ringing. I usually wake up naturally no later than 5. But not today. Not any more. I fumble with it, no longer used to it’s buttons and switches, and eventually silence it. I take a deep breath and look at the clock again. It’s 4:02am.

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