Posts Tagged life

old words with new meaning

Cleaning out a closet I ran into one of your old journals. Once I realized what it was, fully, the words I’d read seared me inside. I wanted to close it, throw it, rip it, burn it, then pretend that I’d never found it. But the more I read the more it somehow made me feel better.

You were just a child. You had boyfriend pants, brightly dyed hair, both of your nipples pierced, and your head tilted toward the world. Your sweet, flowing innocence was evident in every looped “l”, every dotted “i”, and every praise for an unsmoked cigarette.

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A To Do List

28/365: A To Do List

To Do List

It’s really bittersweet that my To Do list actually looks like this. That, among all those other important things, I can easily, plainly spell out that terrible four letter word: divorce.

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all the riches money can’t buy

They’re really not so different than us, wealthy people. You’d think with so much money and fame and fortune that their lives would be remarkably different. And on the surface they are. Everything they have is bigger, everything has nicer labels on it, and there are some problems that simply don’t exist when you have enough money to throw around. But once you get under the surface, everything else is the same.

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expectations

where it settles

where it settles

My expectations continue to let me down. I am learning that the difference between what I expect and what really occurs often equates to the level of my frustration or, as I learn to manage it, simple disappointment.

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a waste

the longest field

the longest field

It’s 4:00am and my alarm is ringing. I usually wake up naturally no later than 5. But not today. Not any more. I fumble with it, no longer used to it’s buttons and switches, and eventually silence it. I take a deep breath and look at the clock again. It’s 4:02am.

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