Posts Tagged awkwardness
circles never end… until they’re broken
Posted by Daniel in the good, the understanding on March 30, 2010
Yesterday was my 7th wedding anniversary.
We’ve been separated for over a year. We’ll likely be no longer married within a month or two. I never wanted to split up in the first place, not because of my wife, but because of the commitment we made and because of my child. Despite all of this, I still had cause to celebrate.
That Final Moment
I’m the kind of guy that gets an overwhelming urge to back out at the last minute.
I’m 100% present for the planning, the preparation, and whatever is required before hand for any event, gathering, party, or project. Once things get going I’m usually glad that I did it, enjoy myself, and work toward being 100% present in that moment.
However, that tiny moment in between preparing and yet before actually doing I regularly get cold feet. There is just some overwhelming fear of failure, social interaction, and awkwardness that consumes me and I find myself looking for excuses to back out.